| my parents fought
yelled at home (almost everyday now)
no one seems to listen
koko is in pain
school is a bitch
god is about take my grandpa..
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what more...
JYoo </3
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| When do I actually seek for God? hmm. I think majority of the time, I search for God when I need him. I don't think I have actually prayed to him to thank him for anything. In a way, that's using someone for your own needs. I promise myself to talk to him AT LEAST once a day. But most of the time, my prayer is like this... "Dear god, I thank you for this day. But lord I am going to take a test soon. So let me do well. In Jesus name I pray. Amen." And now that I look back at it...wow what a dipsht I am. I mean yeah we may not be able to see God or hear him, but that doesn't necessarily mean that we have to talk to him like that. wow. WOW. That is exactly like using someone.. And to top it off, I don't even know if God is real..
I have been struggling with my faith. There are just so many doubts about him. So many people find religion stupid. And I am surrounded by those people..
I feel like a leaf on a tree in Fall. As the wind blows, a leaf from a tree falls on the ground and is no longer part of that tree.. The wind is satan..constantly bashing me and telling me 'God is not real.' The tree is God and the leaves are us. We all start out with God but little by little everyone falls and leaves God. But there are those who fall but grows back on the tree.
Basically, I guess everyone falls down one or twice or many times but they eventually grow again...however there are those who don't grow back...
Hopefully I can be one of those leaves that grows back.
Help me, God..please?
Jyoo
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| So I want to share this song with you guys...
Who says I cant get stoned?
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me and my house alone
Who says I cant get stoned?
Who says I cant be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Re-write my history
Who says I cant be free?
Its been a long night in New York City
Its been a long night in Baton Rouge
I dont remember you looking any better
But then again I dont remember you
Who says I cant get stoned?
Call up a girl that I used to know
Fake love for an hour or so
Who says I cant get stoned?
Who says I cant take time?
Meet all the girls on the county line
Then wait on fate to send a sign
Who says I cant take time?
Its been a long night in New York City
Its been a long night in Austin too
I dont remember you looking any better
But then again I dont remember you
Who says I cant get stoned?
Plan a trip to Japan alone
Doesnt matter if I even go
Who says I cant get stoned?
Its been a long night in New York City
Its been a long time since 20 too
I dont remember you looking any better
But then again I dont remember you
hmm.... what do you guys think of this song??
I want to hear your thoughts...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzChv1ZRtpU&feature=related
 « John Mayer
JYoo
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| So today I stayed home from school. I had a looonnnnggg weekend but it was great! On Friday, I had school then a football game at Hasbrouck Heights... They have an amazing football team. I think we lost 7-35? yeah somewhere around there. BUT! that didn't ruin my weekend. I don't really mind going to football games anymore. It's actually somewhat fun for me. (except the halftime show.) haha our theme this year is Michael Jackson and we have to dance to thriller during the middle of the drill. we learned the famous "zombie dance" (;
Anywhoo, the next day (saturday), I had band practice early in the morning.....after 2-3hours...it starts pouring and the only thing I wore that day was a v-neck t-shirt and rolled up sweats... boy! was I soaked! But the starfield concert made me forget about it.
My church sponsored a Starfield concert! and sooo many people came. (about 1200 people? yeah :] )
and on sundayyy........band festival!
hmm weirdly it wasnt tat cold o___e hahaha
yeah but fuddruckers was the BEST (:
ahh....overall...it was a great weekend.
but now...I am sick. -_-
Jyoo
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